Thoughts about GOD and My Affair with HIM

Dear Child, When next you want to question the love I have for you remember the words given to you through apostle Paul - who murdered thousands of my people (This is a gentle reminder of a vessel I used in spreading my gospel of Love, Redemption & Salvation, just in the case you actually think you can make me stop loving you): 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 4 Love is Patient (I cannot grow tired of you), love is Kind (I am Affectionate and tolerant of your mistakes) It does not envy (I am not discontent with your frail human heart that can be so easily deceived, I do not compare you to your neighbor whom you think is better than you. I love you just as you are), it does not boast , it is not proud (Aha! If I was filled with pride, I'd have wiped out the very existence for you, a human I created ever doubted my existence...remember, I despise the spirit of Pride..it makes you look down on others rather than love them as I desire you do.. being boastful makes others envy you whi...

Like me, I am sure you have heard over and over again that God loves you unconditionally. I sometimes struggle to understand what that truly means. I ask myself many times, How is the Almighty God able to love me even when I cannot love myself.  You see, Once you start struggling to love yourself, You automatically begin to hinder yourself from receiving love.  I guess that is why I question PAPA's love. Moments when I think and chastise myself saying; "How could you have done this? So despicable!" or "oh you young woman, You don't seem to know how to get it right do you?".. Harboring such thoughts, accusing oneself slowing turns a person to depression, self pity and gradually, the person slowly and painfully dies..from within. Our merciful God loathes Self-Pity.  What is Self Pity?  This is the scenario where a person dwells on his sorrows, misfortunes, mistakes etc. Now, it is good to be conscious of the wrongs you have done, this means ...